Last week was a big week for me in my new political career. I survived my very first candidate forum.
The forum was unlike anything I had ever experienced before. In the moment I sincerely felt like I didn’t belong there. I was absolutely terrified, because I was officially the political rookie that couldn’t keep up with the pros. I played the panel conservatively, because I didn’t know what to expect and wanted to play it on the safe side. My opponent took advantage of the situation and found me easy to pick on, because I was the youngest person on the panel and lacked the confidence to fight back.
However, I’ve taken time and energy to reflect on the experience with various new perspectives. My performance provided me with several areas for improvement. The list goes something like this:
- come prepared for public questions on various issues
- elaborate on your ideas (especially the creative ones that stand out)
- stand when you are speaking even when sitting is an option
- be aware of facial expressions when talking or when listening to others
- practice the poker face when someone you don’t like is talking
- practice the poker face when someone says something you don’t like
- be aware of nervous twitches and manage them
The list is more of a starting place really. Politics is a complicated game.
This being said, I would say I am actually very happy with my overall performance. Out of nine candidates, I was one of two women on the panel. There was even a point at the end when I was the only woman on the panel. For those reading who are not women, it’s important to know it is always a little terrifying to be the only woman anywhere.
Also, I would say the last half of the forum was my favorite. This is when the public was able to ask their own questions. I didn’t answer anything, because I was taking the opportunity to learn and observe from those who have done it before. By the end I no longer felt bad about being the rookie.
There will always be people in politics that are genuinely trying to make a difference in the lives of others and will work tirelessly to build a better world for everyone they serve. There will also always be people in politics enslaved by an inflated ego and distorted sense of importance. I was able to observe both types of political minds at the forum, and that was the most shocking yet fun part about being there.
When there is no wrong answers in life it is important to understand it from as many perspectives as you can find. I am here to learn and to feel my life as deeply and courageously as I can.
The forum was unlike anything I had ever experienced before, and I belonged there. It was terrifying, but I was more alive in that moment than I had ever previously been. I was the rookie that took advantage of a situation to learn as much from the pros and about the pros as I possibly could. It wasn’t necessary for me to say much, because you only learn new things from listening. Last week I was the youngest person on the panel, but one day I hope to be a stronger servant and leader both on and off the panel.
Leadership begins with listening.